permission

Perpetual balancing act: organic yet ordered.

I now feel as if new possibilities are finally availing themselves again. This is primarily because of me - acting, active, actuating. It really is testament that, in order to effect change and movement, one must instigate it and unleash it to the winds. Or in Taoist thinking, channel and allow the natural essences to free the stream in one's self - never force it, simply let it. Let one's self be.

In an online site I frequent, I searched once again, but more specifically and with more of a sense of curiosity. Whenever I found a face, a profile that teased a smile, a nod, or an inner click, I let them know. It was, again, surprising. Most of them responded. Some gave me phone numbers, some their email addresses. I wrote them back tonight but will call the others soon. Pleasant inundations once more. The otherwise cool town opened up just a crack wider.

All this because I was honest. To them and to myself. When I feel good, I should express it. When I thrive, I must live it. When I change, I must be it.

Speaking of feeling good, think I'll pour myself another glass of Shiraz...